WARNING: This will be another 'I hate life'-type entry. Proceed with caution.


I hate life, or rather, I hate most people in my life. There is so much goddamn drama going on. 

I was talking to Taylor during band, today, and she totally has the situation down. There are 3 groups: druggies, those who want nothing to do with drugs, and people who float between the two. I hate to go all MEGA-SUPER-HARDCORE-sXe on everyone, but I really try to distance myself from substance (ab)use as much as possible. Unfortunately, most of the people I know float between the two groups, which sucks because then it's just me, Natalie, Taylor, and various people that I don't really know (which makes things akward). Hence the reason I tried to get Chenielle over to us, but she got all pissed and left. NOTE: WHEN I SAID 'COME OVER HERE', I REALLY MEANT 'SIT WITH ME, I AM BORED'. Keep that in mind for future refrence.

People I hate:
Courtney
Shelby
Victoria
Assorted druggies
Daisy and Shea would be lovely people if they didn't do drugs, but they do, so I try to avoid them as much as possible.

I know that it would be unreasonable to ask that everyone I care about avoid these people, but I.....I just want things to go back to normal. 


Aside from all the DRAMMERZ!, life has been pretty oiwehtpqowir,hcgsmcjleqrhdskh;sgkl;hsfdkjl;gskjlgklsfaklgklsklgsklg;alakajgs-ish.

Stagecraft is fun. I hate science. English makes me feel smart. Ancient Civ. is monotonous but fun. I do not know how that works. Math is painfully easy. I like band, except when we're out untill 11:30 PM on monday nights. D:

Next week starts the Jesus Show. I am still looking foward to this, and I do not know why. I hate Christmas with the firey hate of 1,000 suns.

Other stuff happened, but I don't care.

Tomorrow is Halloween. Wheeee.

Uggh. Life really sucks right now. Everyday, something happens that I really want to forget about. Everyone is doing fucking drugs. Fuck drugs. Then all that shit that went on Friday at lunch. Producer-kid-that's-not-the-producer-anymore keeps stalking me, and it's getting creepy. Like, last night after our 4 hour band rehearsal, I was eating dinner (which miraculously was not mexican food), and he appears out of nowhere with a plate full of pasta, coming over to bother me. D:

There are also issues with friends that I had never expected. Chenielle, your twitching is annoying, and as angry as this might make you, I have substancial evidence that it is deliberately self-inflicted. Please stop. Natalie had been getting more distant, getting mad at me for stupid things. She and Carolyn were at the game last night, all I got was a tiny, tiny wave, like they're both reluctant to admit I know them, let alone have been friends since kindergarden. 

Fuck. I'm getting all angsty and emo over this. I'm sorry.

I'm worried about Sammy hanging out with stoners, and I'm worried about Samantha (A.) hanging out with that stoner. She was acting really weird today, like, worse than girl scout-level insaneness. And that's pretty fucking crazy.

On a brighter note, Courtney has pretty much disappeared from my life, which is great. Hell, it's worth celebrating.




I just really wish things would change, and people would start acting normal again. Everything's just so crazy right now, it's like my social life hit those metaphorical walls my conciousness hit last week.

Also, 16 days until Christmas-show starts. This may seem weird, but whenever I'm working there, I seem to feel happier. Maybe it's all the happy jesus-people, maybe it's being onstage in front of hundreds of happy people, maybe it's hanging out backstage with a person/people that makes you happy. I dunno. I'm looking foward to it, though, no matter how much my part sucks.
Though, by the second rehearsal, I'm probably going to remember how much I hate Christmas in the first place, which kind of ruins everything. Whatever. I need something to look foward to.



I'm sorry if that didn't make sense. I've been up since 5:30 AM, marching all day, and am very tired.


DA pending.